Made Up Memories

by The Middle Initials

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released March 10, 2012

Produced by S.A. Bach
Mastered by Art Paz
Artwork & design by Darryl Blood
Songs by Sebastian A. Bach (except as noted)
Published by Straight Pathos (ASCAP)
©ⓟ2012 Straight Pathos

Thanks to Tricia Aurand, Robert Bowman, Ryan Campbell, J. David Carrera, Diego De la Rosa, Chrissa Hayes, Arthur C. Lee, Eli Crews, Jonathan Gomez, Scott McDowell, Jose Castillo, Mikiko Katsuno, Bryan Mantini, Curtis Wright, Darryl Blood, Art Paz, Jon Hershfield, Shareef Elfiki, Claire Lesnick, Joy Deyo, Marie Ishikawa, Alina Cutrono, Tisa Pickering, Ryder Bach, Matt Sobel, Chris Votek & Joe Fraley

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Track Name: Dissociative Fugue in D Minor
Deep down I hope
Someone's been keeping score
I hope somewhere inside me
Someone's been paying attention
Cause I haven't been for some time

If you can make memories up
I wouldn't want to but I would
And probably have and probably will
And probably am
I've been okay with that for some time

But you and I alone
I know we were
Weren't we, some time ago?

You and me both
I know we did
Didn't we, once upon a time?
You were mine

I seem to have forgotten
What have I been up to? How have I been
For so long since I pressed pause on life
And walked away from it?
Any last second heroics?

All I have to cling to
Are some songs that I wrote you posthumously
Let's have a cup of a tea
I'll tell you of my dreaming
Lyrics can be deceiving

But you and I alone
We really were
Weren't we, a long-ass time ago?

You and me both
It really happened
Didn't it, in some lifetime?

You and I alone
I know we were
Weren't we, some time ago?

You and me both
I know we did
Didn't we, once upon a time?
You were mine
You were mine
Track Name: Tired of Me
I was ready for Take 11
*I said "Let's take 5"
I was vodka & Red Bull
*I was "None thanks, I gotta drive"

I was Get Back
*I was Let It Be, let it be
I said "Baby, let's just kick back"
But you were only tired of me

*I was tired of being the one to tell you no
I really miss the way you said it though

You're tired of me, I know
You're tired of feeling your life is not your own
You wanna go and wander awhile

You're tired of me, I know
You're tired of spending your time with me alone
You're gonna go and try to find a better guy
I can't say I don't get why

*While I was crunching numbers
*You were bending spoons
*I was going in early
*And you were sleeping in past noon

I thought the job had changed you
And I tried to set your mind at ease
Never did I imagine
You were growing tired of me

*I'm just sick of always having to fill you in
*I'm sorry but you've worn my patience thin

*I'm tired of you, you know
*I'm tired of feeling my life is not my own
*I want you to go, you're cramping my style

I'm on a pretty early schedule now
Cause you see I'm back in school
I cut down on drinking
And I've shed a pound or two

So if you ever start to wonder
Just what it was you saw in me
Come on back and I'll refresh your memory

You're tired of me, I know
*I'm tired of feeling my life is not my own
*I gotta go get lost for a while

*I'm tired of you, you know
*I'm tired of spending my time with you alone
*I'm gonna go try to find a better guy
I can't say I don't get why
Track Name: The Gag
get a load of little blue boy
blue guitar in hand
blue eyes all bright & wide
with a cute little cleft chin

he thinks you're there with him
he wants to have your word on it
he thinks you're there within
he's convinced that you understand

his face might get stuck like that
if you don't let him in on the gag

feast your eyes on little blue guy
his blue comforter has failed
blue sky is irrelevant
as long as he's on your tail

he thinks you're dropping hints
he wants to have your word on it
he thinks your heart's with him
and your pain is equivalent

his face might get stuck like that
if you don't let him in on the gag

so think of a number between one and ten
if he guesses right, tell him you're never coming back again

throw a wink at captain blueballs
show him the slightest hint of skin
your curves comprise the talking points
for mother nature's spin

he thinks you're into him
he wants to have your word on it
his faith is wearing thin
heart walls are closing in

his face might get stuck like that
if you don't let him in on the gag
Track Name: Distinction
it's all over and done
the race has been run
i lost and he won
cleaned out the web i spun

i'm defeated and scarred
all calloused and hard
i didn't and he did
our great love was just that puppy shit
wasn't it?

and it was all retarded and screwed
could've sworn my love was true
and that i had to toil and cling
and lasso everything

your laughter, your grace
the smile on your face
i had to possess them or bust
to hell with both of us

and while i occasionally still believe
you're the only gal for me
i don't have to want you so i won't
i love you but you don't
Track Name: Who Said You Could Get Dressed?
I really really love you
I know I've told too many other girls that
But it sure feels nice saying it to you now
I hope we're still together when I play this song in public
I'll tell everyone who I wrote it about

So what was your name again?
Is this 2005 or -10?
Hey what am I wearing?
And who told you to get dressed?
Who said you could get dressed?

I really really love you
I know I probably actually don't
But it sure feels good pretending that I do tonight
I hope we're still together when I put this on an album
I will print your name in boldface in the acknowledgments

Could you at least give me a hint?
What is this, '89? '98? Missouri or Michigan?
Is my hair all gone or just getting thin?
And why're you wearing that bra again?
And where the hell do you think you're going?
And who said you could get dressed?
Track Name: Still Alone
If we're gonna fall in love, let's get busy
You know being friends is just fine with me
You know being friends is all there is really
For geniuses like you and me

We got this weird obsession with the truth, you know
We got God talking to us through the radio
We hear Satan's voice ringing in the overtones
We know everything; why are we still alone?
Why are we still alone?
Why are we still alone?

If you're gonna kill me softly, start strummin'
I only seem to put nails in coffins, see
So now I only sing songs 'bout make believe
But you can play a song for me

And I'll know the truth when I hear it, yo
Studied a quarter of a million love songs or so
I know every lyric and every note
I'll teach you everything if you tell me why I'm still alone
Why am I still alone?
Why am I still alone?

To wait another day
'X' marks the date on the calendar
Another day I'd just as soon forget
Immortalized in song

Wait another day
'X' marks the date on the calendar
Yet another day I'd just as soon forget
Immortalized in song

I'm gonna fall in love, I can feel it
I'm still not sure how I'm supposed to deal with this
I don't have a move, I won't steal a kiss
I am at peace with my awkwardness

And I know it shouldn't be a struggle
And I refuse to let this thing get overblown
I won't throw a fit, I'll drop you right at home
Just tell me one thing: why are you still alone?
Why are you still alone?
Baby why are you still alone?
Baby why are you still alone?
Baby why are you still alone?
Track Name: Gimme
When you said you wanted me to kiss you
That probably would have been a good time to kiss you
It occurs to me that should have been a gimme

But instead I took a sip of whiskey
And opening my big mouth and said, "That'd be lovely"
Took another sip of whiskey and laughed like it was funny
Track Name: 2002
I'm singin' a song I wrote you in two-thousand-and-two
I'm sure you'll get around to me, your train just ain't come through
I wish I could make love to you, or at least find me a substitute
I'd play her all the songs I wrote you in two-thousand-and-two

You're the one-hundred-some-odd pound elephant in the room
You're always somewhere else, but you come back and haunt on cue
I wish I could get rid of you, or at least tie you down and marry you
So I could stop relating so much to those songs I wrote in two-thousand-and-two

I'm sitting on a goldmine, why are these songs all mine?
It still don't figure, can't put my finger on why
I still ain't caught your eye, I'll give it one more try

I'm singin' a song I wrote you in two-thousand-and-nine
There's no time for patience now, quick and sloppy's fine
I wanna feel you in my arms so lie with me tonight
I'll pick up where I left off my life
Think it was sometime back in two-thousand-
And-one
Track Name: Magic Fingers
You know I got a secret weapon
You know I've been battle tested, baby
And I know you are so fond of me

You know I never learned my lesson
And they ain't gonna let no woman kill me
So come on, you even said so, practically

You know I got these magic fingers
You know I got a magic tongue
You know I got two magic eyeballs
Pumping yours full of love

Now I still got that secret weapon
Verse one was all just common knowledge, baby
Hell no, you're not gonna get to me

I've held out lots longer for less, hon
You ought not have been kissing my neck so sweetly
Now I'm sure you're awfully fond of me

You know I got these magic fingers
You know I got a magic tongue
You know I got two magic eyeballs
Pumping yours full of love

You know that I could make you crack up
You know that I could make you come
You know that I could make you happy
And all that good stuff

You know that I could crack your shit up
You know that I could make you come
You know that I could make you happy
And all that good stuff

You know I got these magic fingers
You know I got a magic tongue
You know I got two magic eyeballs
Pumping yours full of love
Track Name: Noise
I need so much noise to hear the inner voice
If there ain't something humming at all times
I might lose my mind, I may lose my mind

Twenty pedals on the floor just gets my foot in the door
If I ain't pulverizing every note
Can't even hear what I wrote, I don't know what I wrote

I have to conjure a girl just to speak a single word
And I've thought up some pretty ones, to be sure
But they was all for her, what am I without her?

I wanna call her honey pie, I wanna look her in the eye
I wanna make up for lost time
I want an alibi, I want her to be mine
Track Name: This Old Song
I feel like myself when I get set down
I feel like the old Sebastian again
I feel like singin' a new song to myself
'Bout how things still ain't happenin'

You are the latest and far from the greatest
To cast me by the wayside
The latest lie I've fed myself one too many times
The latest, deflatedest, most slanted rhyme
How I still wish you were mine


My dear guitar-slingin' unclaimed prize
It's me, the old Sebastian again
I'm callin' out your name, same as mine
I'm sorry things still ain't happenin'

I know you're the latest, bet you won't be the greatest
To dwell within that pale skin
And you're bound to win, 'cause it's you that I believe in
The latest, courageousest, you're right on time
And I'm so glad you're mine


I feel like myself when I get set down
I feel like the old Sebastian again
I feel like singin' this old song to myself
To remind me how life is ongoin'
Track Name: No Unified Self
There is no unified self
Any more than there's a unified everything else
There is no heaven or hell
But no myth has or ever will be fully dispelled

There's nothing to wedding bells
Unless you listen carefully and stay real still
'Cause there is no unified self
So each of us for both of us is really just as well
It's really just as well

There is no wasting of time
So don't throw out the meaning just because the words rhyme
No intelligence nor design
Accounts for all this distance 'tween your arms and mine

I'm flying blindly for home
That door inside your heart I didn't see till it closed
But there is no wasting of time
So this could be the valley that leads into our prime
Into our prime

I didn't know this could be you
I didn't know what you were gonna change into

There is no unified self
So I can't really love you more than anyone else
There is no heaven or hell
So whatever gets you through the night should work out swell

There's nothing to wedding bells
So you can plug your ears and just run like hell
'Cause there is no unified self
So I'll just give that love we made to somebody else